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ei... this will be my 4th blog... and this will be bout my friend whom i badly want to spend the rest of my life with... bigat ano? well... it started out like this...

remember on my previous posts bout my 1st gf... well... she shoudnt have been that girl... the truth is... shes not my first choice... my first choice was a very cute chinita whom i barely know... i did the usual things i would do if i like a girl... i asked her number and she gave it... so we started texting... she didnt reply at first pero nag reply din xa after some time... i asked the basics like ilan silang magkapatid and stuff... then i asked if i could call her house... k naman daw... but shes not that interesting kausap... then when meet kami ng barkada ko sa village... it seems pala that my closest friend their is courting miss chinita... our friendship was never the same... i treated him as a taksil... even though he isnt... then i found out that my closest friend from my former village liked her too... then i thought that i cant do this to my friends just for a girl... and they wouldnt do that to me too... so i stopped texting her... it seemes strange kasi di niya ako hinanap... nasanay na kasi ako na hanapin ng girl na bigla ko lang pipigilang itext...

then the 6th grade ended and i have a flourishing relationship... but i dont understand why one time i just had to text her... i was on a seaside resto at that time... mga 3pm... then to my surprise she replied... she asked if there was any special occasion why i texted... i told her no... i just missed her... kahit na may nililigawan na ako... an even bigger surprise came when she told me it was her birthday... i was so embarassed... but di good news lahat... may bf na pla xa... my friend from my village... i was devastated... pero weird dba? faith? destiny? i dont know...

then 2yrs passed na walang contact... i lost my phone and her number along with it... new phone new life... or so i thought... but on that year i was returning to my old school... and thats where shes studying... on my first day i was really excited... it was my old school so i would expect some of my old friends to be my classmates... but one stood out from the rest... it was her... i was so happy... overjoyed... ewan... so i went to class... everyone quickly recognized me... including her... wow... she still knows who i am... and luckily shes my seatmate for the whole year... yahooo... grabe... we talked a lot... we got so much closer... we even talked bout the strangest of things... she hates crabs as i do... and both our families love to eat crabs except for the both of us... weird... we talked so much that wala akong natutunan sa chem namin... sympre... sino ba pipiliin kong pakinggan? ang matandang lalake na chem teacher or a princess? sympre ang lalake... hehehe... joke lang... i had to cram on the finals to pass... whew... everything went fine except for one little detail... may kanya kanya kaming syota... waaaa... bago na naman bf niya... pero alam ko na la akong binatbat sa bf niya... isang lasallista na 2yrs older sa amin na super mega yaman... and im just a rich boy turned smart ass gangster... unfair dba? a princess deserves a prince... not a thief...

the schoolyear finally ended and then pasukan na naman... time to check whos gona be my classmates again... and wham... there she is again... i dont know if its a gift or a curse... basta classmates kami... yahooo ulit... and this time were both single... since classmates din kami last year malamang kami ang magkakasama... and i was falling even more in love with her... one problem... i cant get it out of my chest... im fuckin torpe kasi... i dont know why but shes the only girl na di k kayang sabihan ng i love you... bakit lord? everyone sees na may gusto ako sa kanya... i ask my friends kung alam ba kaya niya na i like her more than a friend... they would all tell me na obvious naman daw... so i tried my best not to be obvious... i may have overdone it also...

my first mistake was on the first few weeks of classes... she told me that she requested for a transfer to another class kc dun mga friends nya... i stopped and just said "ok"... nagalit xa kc bkit yun lang daw ang reaction ko... she even asked me if i wont stop her... i told her no kc its wat she wanted... pero s loob looban ko i was shattered... makakasama ko na sana xa 1 more year nawala pa... pero thank god di na2loy transfer nya...

den she started to ask me if i loved her... di seryoso mga tanong niya so i would just raise my eyebrow and say no... waaa... why cant i tell her... tinatanong na nga eh... punyeta ko talaga... she asked me numerous times pero la parin... waaaa...

we wer always groupmates kasi nga close kami... some people even mistake us for lovers... sana totoo... there was one activity in school wherin we would have to do some voluntary work for charitable organizations... i was the leader so hurray... i asked her where she wanted to go since 8 weekends kami doon... so i wanted her to be at least happy sa experience... she said philippine eagle park... i told her shed get what she wants... so that afternoon kinausap ko kaagad teacher ko sa cle(christian living education)... medyo close kami since sakristan ako... he told me di raw pwede yung hinihingi ko since random daw dapat ang pagpili... i had no choice but to tell him the truth... that i wanted to impress her... he understood... binigay niya sa amin ang philippine eagle... laki ng smile niya...

things were interesting... there were 5 of us in the group... isang absenot(he never attended once) dlwang magsyota and kming dlwa... i was so happy since magsyota ang mga kasama nmin we would have to give them privacy resulting to privacy for us... we did mostly nothing doon... one time i bought her beef chicharon which we both loved... yummy... but not everything went smoothly... one particular moment was when she asked if pwede ba raw kaming umakyat sa treehouse... walang tao dun so solong solo namin... instead of doin d moves nagyosi ako... sobrang nerbyos ko na kc eh... gago talaga ako... nainis xa and asked to go bak down agad... waaaa...

then somethin happened that scared the shit out of me... there is this other close friend of hers din kc... guy din... if shen not with me shes with him... then hiniwalayan yung guy ng gf niya... then he told the girls bestfriend that hes starting to fall for her... he made the bestfriend swear not to tell... but as you can expect the bestfriend told her... she started to make iwas to the guy... i asked why then she explained everythin... i was happy at first coz now masosolo ko na talaga xa... den i realized that she may feel the same way when i tell her how i really feel... so i told her to talk to him nalang kc di naman niya kasalanan na ma in love sa kaniya... she agreed and thanked me... i felt saved...

den valentines came... a week before valentines she told me lonely xa kc la daw xang matatanggap this year since la xang bf... she wanted a bouqet daw sana... so i decided it would be now or never... i secretly arranged for a bouqet of pink and white roses for valentines... and while i was at it i bought my lil sis and mom some too... my mom was so happy that she gave me a midnight surprise chocolate cake... it was heart shaped... so what happened was this... my driver delivered the cake sa haus niya b4 lunch break... when she arrived home (coz she goes home during lunch break) nandun na yung cake... she called me agad to thank me... i was wid my barkada sa mall coz dun pa sila bibili 4 valentines... fools... dont they know that such a delicate matter such as this needs to be planned? by the time we arrived back sa school naka antay na ang driver ko... nandun na ang fresh bouqet... i got it out of the car then slowly went up the stairs... when i alighted nakita ko kaagad xa... nakatalikod xa and she was talking to a classmate of ours... then nung papalapit na ako tinuro ako ng kausap niya then iniwan xa... as i gave it to her she was wearing a super big smile... then she asked me in the sweetest way kung bakit ko xa binigyan ng roses... i was so nervous... nakikita ko ang mga mukha ng mga classmates and friends namin na sumisilip... finally... i cracked... i said "wala lang, hiningi mo eh"... as she heard that her smile immediately turned to a super big frown... she walked away and i was so angry at myself... i heard countless sighs from my classmates... what a fool i am... pero pls give me some credit... it was my first time to give someone a bouqet... yup... kahit mga naging gf ko wala... xa lang...

then may isang exam kami na para sa buong batch... before kami pumasok sa room she asked if pwede ba raw magkatabi kami... i gladly said yes... then umupo na kami beside each other... then dumating ang proctor amd asked us to line up alphabetically outside... nasayangan ako sa opportunity... then to my surprise kami pa rin ang magkatabi... tapos may pumasok bigla na late... we all had to adjust... so new seating arrangement na naman... pero kami na naman ang magkatabi... 3 yata ang late that day so we had to be rearranged 3 times pero parati pa rin kaming magkatabi... then she told me the sweetest words... "wow, meant to be siguro tayo"... it was music to my ears... i think i was the happiest day of my life coz lumabas ang full potential ko... i got a 99 percentile rank on the exam meaning 99 percent who took the exam had lower scores than me... it was the highest score one could get... i calculated it and i found out that only 5 of us could get 99... and i found out that the other four were all from the honors section... among the four was our the valedectorian and salutatorian... i was shocked...

then one day a friend asked if i could accompany him later sa isang office... he told me he was gona pass a poem he was working on para ma publish sa annual compilation ng school... i asked kung pwede rin ba akong gumawa... he said pwede pero i had to do it before 5pm kc deadline na... it was 1:30pm na... so i wrote a poem kaagad... i finished it in less than an hour... then a month later lumabas ang compilation... then one of my loud mouthed classmate yelled my name... "uuuyyy, ikaw to ah, alam ko kung para kanino to"... then everyone knew in no time na may poem ako... i was a known gangster sa school tpos may sensitive side... it was something new... well... it went like this...

you sit here beside me
not knowing how i feel
weve been friends since forever
but nothings what it seems

at your lovely eyes i stare
i cant help but fall in love
it hurts so much and i cant bear
i know its you whom i cant have

so i guess ill just keep quiet then
and hope youll never find
the lonely things i keep inside
these silent dreams of mine

its entitled silent dreams by the way... she asked me for whom it was daw... i said for no one...

then retreat came... it was a 3 day 2 night retreat for the class... we were so close during the retreat... she would let me embrace her which i took to my delight... i cant believe anyone could have super soft skin... then she asked me a serious question... she asked if she should give her ex ( the lasallista guy ) another chance... she asked another guy who liked her earlier and he said no... coz marami pa daw iba jan... it was my chance... but i didnt take it... i cant take advantage of her... i told her that she should... kc baka magsisi pa xa... and if d guy would make loko again i told her to drop him agad... at least binigyan nya ng 2nd chnce dba? but i wasted another perfect chance... pero i only want the best for her... at least di ako lumabas na selfish prick... i also gave her a little surprise during the retreat nga pala... i bought some of those beef chicharon that she really liked... i had to drive an hour just to get those but they were worth it...

then graduation came... i couldnt believe that umabot na ng 1yr ay di ko pa rin nasasabi sa kanya... so i decided na ito na talaga ang last chance... so i wrote everythin down in a letter... i cant post my letter since its so personal... it came from the bottom of my shattered heart... we were gona part and sobrang nabitin ako... i asked my lady friend to give it to her... my friend told me she read it daw kaagad pero la daw reaction... then for the celebration the whole family went to gloria maris ( a chinese resto )... patapos na ang meal namin nang bigla akong kinausap ng lil sis ko... "diba si ate *** yan?"... akala ko biro lang pero nagulat ako nung nakita ko talaga siya with her family... fuck... ano ba to?

2yrs have passed since the graduation... di kami nagkaroon ng maayos na conversation ever since... a friend of mine told me that sila pa nung lasallista guy... going strong pa daw sila... well... i hope a miracle could happen so that i could be with her... i really want to spend the rest of my life with her... and i wouldnt mind if it would take a lifetime for that to happen...

Rapunzel (Part 1)

Ahem... Sarap mgkwento ng love stories... Kakainspire eh ska ang sarap balikan ng mga masasayang memories...

Napakaimmature ko nung una qng dting sa highskul... Ugaling "totoy" ika nga... Pglipas ng ilang years, ngmature ako ng onti pero immature parin dahil wala pa aqng experience sa love... Sana wg kayo antukin dahil mahabahaba 2ng ikwekwento ko...
Magsisimula ang kwento ko sa bandang umpisa ng 3rd year highschool 1st quarter, Coed school ang pinapasukan ko na pinamumugaran ng mga kalalakihan at kababaihan... Mas maraming babae kesa sa mga lalaki... Cguro ang ratio is 3 girls: 1 boy... Maraming potential na mging karelasyon bsta mgaling kang dumiskarte... Ufortunately ala pa aq msyadong karanasan pgdating sa mga babae... Nabasted dn kc aq nung 2nd year... Ung seating arrangement sa room namin ay boy,girl,boy... bsta ganun... Alternate ang babae at lalaki... Itatago ko ang pangalan ng aking katabing babae sa pangalang "Rapunzel" pero ang totoo niyang pangalan ay may kaugnayan sa isang instrumentong musikal. Bakit Rapunzel ang ipinangalan ko? Kasi mahaba at madulas ang kanyang buhok... Lampas bewang ang kanyang buhok... Kung tutuusin ay pwede siyang maging modelo ng shampoo dahil sa ganda ng kanyang buhok... Nabighani kaagad ako nung una ko siyang makita... Dahil CHOPE pa aq nung time na yun, hiyang hiya aq tuwing nalalapit ako sa kanya at nagiging CLUMSY aq... Ewan q b qng bkit... Parang ang hirap huminga pg kasama q xa at wala aq sa sarili q palagi... Minsan nkakapuslit ako ng silay sa kanya... Grabe nakakakilig!!! Kapag nahuhuli niya aqng tumitingin sa kanya ay agad kong iniiwas ang mata ko sa kanyang mga mata... Gustu q sanang pagmasdan ang kanyang mabibilog na mata kaso lang ay naCHOCHOPE p q... Bihirang bihira lang kaming mag-usap nung time na yun pero may isang insidente na nkapagpabago ng relasyon naming dalawa...


Ang lakas ng bagyo nun... Sinuspinde ang mga klase ng tanghali... Naiwan kami ni Rapunzel sa room dahil kami ang nakatalagang maglinis ng kwarto... Baha na nga sa labas ng paaralan namin dahil binabaha talaga ang paaralan namin... Naglinis kami ng naglinis... Wala kaming sinasabi sa isa't isa... Para bang hindi kami mgkasama sa isng kwarto... Halos lahat ng estudyante ay nakauwi na... Sa aming section, kami n lng ang naitra... Nagulat aq ng tinanong niya sa kin kung pwede ko dw ba siyang samahan sa may labas ng skul kc hihintayin niya ang papa niya at naiwan niya ang kanyang payong sa bahay niya... Ang cute pa ng boses niya! Sinabi ko sa kanya na mghintay muna kami ng ilang oras baka sakali kacng mawala ang baha sa paaralan... Pumayag naman siya... Ayun! Solongsolo ko xa! Haha... Di ko namalayan nung time na yun nag dadaMOVES n q! Hehe... Ayun ngusap kami tungkol sa aming sarili... Siya unang ngkwento... Tas ako ang sumunod... Nalaman namin na marami kaming similarities... Mahilig kaming matulog, magbasa ng pocket books, mg laro ng computer at mgbadminton... Mahilig din xang mg joke... Grabe... ang korny talaga niyang mg joke... Sounds rude pero yun ang totoo... Dami niyang alam na jokes... e.g. Cnung artista ang maraming teeth?E di si MaTEETH! Grbe ang pinapakita niyang kakornihan... Sa una pinipilit q lng 2mawa para d xa mapahiya pero habang tumatagal ang joking time eh untiunti kong naapreciate ang mga jokes niya, untiunti na qng natatawa nang hindi pilit... Mga hapon na ata nun ng mgpasya kaming lumabas n ng skul... La n kc pagasa na bumaba ang baha kaya lulusungin n lng namin kesa abutin kami ng dilim sa paaralan at mapagpiyestahan p kmi ng mga lamok... Nilusong namin ang baha... Hawakhawak ko ang payong habang siya ay nkakapit sa braso ko dahil takot siyang madulas at mapahiya... Kinikilig ako nung time na yun! Grabe talaga kaya binabagalan ko lakad ko para tumagal pa ang pgkapit niya sa braso ko... Umabot din naman kami sa labas at hinintay namin ang papa niya... Ang ganda ng scene na yun! Biglang umulan ulit at nilalamig kaming dalawa... Ayokong gumawa ng the MOVES(yakap... haha tigas mukha q) kasi baka makahalata kaya binigay ko n lng sa kanya yung jacket ko... Ngthank u naman siya at ngsmile ako... KiligZ! Cute niya! Parang nescafe na commercial yung scene! haha... Dumating na din ang papa niya at nagpaalam xa skin... Habang naglalakad sila ng papa niya palayo sa akin, muli aqng nabighani sa pagsayaw ng kanyang mahaba at magandang buhok at hindi ko maitago ang sayang nadama ko...

To be Continued...

Part 3

Final chapter na! qng gustu niyong basahin, AYOS!... qng ayaw nyo... okay lng din

May tanong lng aq...
Cnu b ms gwapo?
Si Ethan Hunt o Si Achilles?
Si Tom Cruise o Si Brad Pitt?
Ba't ko tinanong? hehe... malalaman nyo din...

Nung part 2 kinwento q ung time na pumayag siyang mgpaligaw... so iyon nanliligaw na q... araw araw q xang tinatawagan sa phone... 2matawag aq pg umaga para masaya... kc madalas na ndi nasusundo ung 2log niya kaya mejo bad3p xa kpg umaga... pero kahit papaano nkakapagusap naman kami ng maayos... ewan b qng bkit pero gustung gusto qng naririnig/nakakita xang nababad3p... un cguro un hinahanap hanap q sa kanya...

Palagi din kaming naglalaro ng badminton together dhil gustung gusto namin mglaro ng badminton... kapag naglalaro kami, gusto qng humanga siya sakin... ngpapasikat talaga aq sa kanya... pinipilit qng mgimprove ang skills ko... hinahabol q ung shuttlecock kapag malayo sa akin ska ngiging aggressive talaga aq... binibigyan naman niya aq ng compliments tulad ng "Nice Game" o kaya naman "Sipag mo, pg pa2loy mo yan"... Cguro para sa inyo mababaw lng yon pero para sakin mga words un na pumapawi sa pagod q... Para sa akin reward un sa hard work na ginagawa q maimpress lamang xa...

Alang sumusundo sa kanya kpg umuuwi xa... so tinake ko ung opportunity na ihatid xa sa bahay niya... Ayaw niya mgpahatid dahil kaya naman daw niya ang sarili niya saka nahihiya daw xang mgpahatid... kinukulit q xa na ihatd q xa... pgkatapos niyang mgpakipot(hehehe) papayag dn naman xa sa huli(galing q talaga)... ngbebenefit dn naman aq sa paghahatd sa knya kc lalo png tumatagal ung oras na mgkasama kmi (hehehe the moves)...

Masasabi qng mabilis mgimprove ang relationship namin kc ngoopen-up na xa sakin... dami qng nalalaman sa kanya... mga secrets, problems tulad na lng na hiwalay parents niya... palagi dw xang alang kasama sa bahay kc ung mom niya bc sa work tas ung brother niya nsa US. Mejo similar kmi kc kpatid q lng n nkakabata ksama q sa bhay... ung parents q ska 2 q png sis nsa Saudi... paminsan minsan pumupunta ung tita q sa bhay upang asikasuhin kami... the point is pareho kaming bnibgyanng madaming responcbilities... ndi pa dn daw xa ngkakaroon ng bf(swerte pala qng aq mauna)... feel q mlapit n niya aqng sagutin

Ndi q alam na meron pang isa na nanliligaw sa kanya... nalaman q un one time kc may sumundo sa kanya na guy after na mgbadminton kmi(seriously gwapo ung guy pero gwapo dn naman aq)... d q alam qng anu gagawn nung time n un... feel q ngtaksil xa pero technically ndi naman... tinawagan niya aq sa phone ska ngsorry dahil d niya cnb na may isa pa xang manliligaw... nauna lng dw aqng manligaw ng isang linggo... iyon... hay... mahirap n nga lalo p qng mahihirapan... ngspy aq ng konti sa lalaki... tningnan q ung blog niya... friendster... bsta lhat makakuha lng aq ng info sa kanya... well... talagang gwapo xa... multitalented pa... varsity ng taekwondo kc... kinumapra q xa sa sarili q...

Ako:
- gwapo
- confident
- vertically challenged
- cute talaga

Isang guy:
- gwapo
- chickboy(dmi n nging gf)
- matalino(ayon sa sources)
- boy next door
- tall
- maputi
- mukhang maamo

So enuf comparison... isusummarize q n lng... pg kinompare m kmi sa isa't isa parang xa c BRAD PITT tas aq c TOM CRUISE(kapal q)... walang pakialamanan e sa gustu qng gnun ang comparison eh... sa totoo lng tagilid aq sa duelo ng mga gwapo... hehehe... seriously ngdadalawang icp aq qng 22loy q pa panliligaw o ndi na... natatakot talga aqng mabasted kc masakit mabasted... once n qng nabasted... ayoko ng mangyari skin ult un... sa bandang huli nilakasan q n lng loob q... d aq mgpapatalo sa kanya... taas kc cguro ng pride q kaya gnun... all or nothing na! naniniwala kc aq sa kasabihan na "fortune favors the brave"... Gustung gustu q talaga si Trizia na kahit alam qng malabo ang chance na aq ang piliin ni Trizia... Sa tingin q nung time na yun, milagro kung aq ang pipiliin niya... Ang tanging ngawa q lng nung time na un ay magtiwala sa sarili q...

Ayun... Mgfst4wrd tau ng onti... Pgkatapos ng ilang weeks ng panliiligaw, ininvite niya akong mgdinner dahil may important dw xang sasabihin sakin... kinutuban aq na babastedin niya ako pero I continued being optimistic... Cguro nung time na yun ayaw kong isipin ang mangyayari sakin kung babastedin niya ako, di pa ako ready eh... Habang kumakain kami may napansin ako sa kanya... Sobrang daldal niya ata nung time na yun... Dami niya kinukwento, kinikwento niya family niya, mga nkakatuwang experiences namin saka ngkwekwento din xa about sa other guy na karibal ko... Naweweirduhan aq kc d niya ugali ang mgtatalak dahil iyon ang gawain ko, tahimik kasi ang pagkakakilala ko sa kanya... Naweweirduhan dn ako dahil ang konti ng inorder niya saka d niya msyadong ginagalaw pgkain niya... D normal un kc kasing lakas siyang kumain ng typical na lalaki at may pgkamasiba(hehehe)...

Bgla n lng aqng nagulat nung nilipat niya ang topic... Nilipat niya ang topic 2ngkol sa relationship naming dalawa... Sinabi niya sakin na mahal niya yung isang guy dahil may hinahanap siya sa kanya na wala sa akin... Sinagot na niya daw ung guy nung isang araw... D na niya sinabi qng anu yung wala sa akin na meron dun sa isa... Sinabi din niya sakin na hnggang close friends lng nung time na un ang tingin niya sakin... Tumigil na siyang magsalita at that point... Nung time na yun biglang ngblangko ang utak ko... Ala aqng maisp... Kinuha q n ung bill at nglagay ng pera sa dun sa lagayan ng pera... Tatayo na sana aq para umalis nang hinawakan niya ung kamay q na tila ba pinipigilan ako... Umupo ulit ako at tinanong ko sa kanya kung bakit niya ako pinigilan... Ngsorry lng xa... Xempre no comment ako... Tinanong q xa kung pde q xang ihatid pero tumanggi xa... Susunduin dw xa ng BOYFRIEND niya... Ayun iniwan q xa dun at umuwi n ko sa bahay ko...

Naiinis talaga ako sa sarili ko... Umiinom ako ng beer hbang ngiisip... Galit na galit ako sa sarili ko... Galit na galit din ako sa kanya... D q mapigilan ang mga luha q... Sagwa siguro ng hitsura q nun... Parang naubos ang confidence ko... Feeling ko inapakapakan ang pride ko... Mapride kasi ako at ayokong natatalo... Habang nilulunod ko ang sarili a ng beer, ang daming tanong na pumapasok sa utak ko na d q masagot... Wasn't I good enough for her? Anu ba ang kulang sakin? Anu bang meron dun sa boy next door na wala sa akin? Bakit hindi niya ibinigay sa akin ang pagmamahal na inaasamasam ko? Bakit ang tangatanga q na kahit alam ko na slim ang chance para maging kami e tinuloy ko parin? Pero may biglang sumagi sa isip ko... Niligawan ko pala xa dahil mahal q xa... Hindi para mahalin din niya ako... Gusto ko lng ipadama sa kanya na mahal ko xa... Gnun lng... Naisip q nung time na yun na "Kung talagang mahal mo ang isang tao, kaya mo siyang mahalin na walang hinihin kapalit". Loving unconditionally kung ika nga... At that time mejo naliwanagan ako... Unti-unting tumigil ang pagluha ko... Unti-unting bumuti pakiramdam ko...

Db may tanong aq kanina sa umpisa na Cnu ms gwapo? C Tom Cruise ba o c Brad Pitt? Ang sagot ni Trizia ay si Brad Pitt… Pero para sakin c Tom Cruise! Xempre aq un eh! Hahaha! AYOS BA? Korny noh? Piz 2 all

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well... it seems like u enjoyed my 2nd post... heres my 3rd... its bout my 2nd gf...

it started like this... remember in my 2nd post na di ako tinanggap sa school ng 1st gf ko... so i had to settle with one na kilala ng dad ko ang may ari ng school... naging honors class ako dun coz the school really isnt that challenging academically... and if u remember in my 1st post i said na im a natural flirt... so natural na naghanap ako ng crush doon... pero hanggang dun lang... may gf pa ako nun eh... di nagtagal kumalat kung cno ang gs2 ko... she was a cute chinita who is exceptionally smart...

naging groupmates kmi ng girl... it meant nothing 2 me pero ayos dba? i wil hav a chance 2 know her beter... social studies yung subject (yuck) but i tried my best to contribute... then she asked me if i could call her at home kc she will tell me daw wat i would need to bring 4 our presentation... so i did... dad pa niya ang nakasagot(yikes)... then nakausap ko xa... she also had a cute voice gaya ng gf ko at that time... she just told me to bring manila paper... so i said ok... just wen i was ready to put down the phone she asked me if yun lang ba ang tinawag ko sa kanya... para di mahalata that i like her i said yes... and i asked her what else would i call her for... she said wala lang daw... gs2 lang daw niyang mkipag usap... yahoo 4 me... pero kalma lang kc may gf pa ako... wa...

as time went by naging close kami... but di niya pa rin kilala kung cno ang crush ko sa class... it turned out to be such an issue pala.... everyone knew except her... so naging praning ako... i really didnt want her 2 know kc baka masira frndshp nmin... then one afternoon i saw her talking 2 her bestfriend... pag lapit ko bigla silang umalis... so i suspected something na... so pumunta ako apartment ng friend ko at naglabas ako ng sama ng loob... i smoked about 3 packs that afternoon... then di ko na nakaya... i called her up as soon as i got home... she noticed daw na medyo mainit ulo ko kanina so i told her na as if di nya alam ang reason... di pala tlaga nya alam... i told her it was about my crush... nagalit xa coz she knew na may gf na ako... sbi nya sabihin ko daw kng cno yung crush ko para pagsasabihan nya raw na tigilan na ako... i told her that it wud be quite imposible... she admitted na may gs2 din xa sa class and we would play a game 2 know each others crush... i would say a name and she would say if xa nga or hindi... pumayag ako since there were only 18 boys and 22 girls in our class... so natural na mauuna niyang masabi yung crush niya... then halfway sa game sumulpot dad niya... nagalit coz lagi nalang sw xang nagtetelebabad... so we had 2 hang up... di ko na natiis so i texted her d truth... she texted me 2 call agen so i did... i asked her if she was happy na ba... she asked ano yun? i said d truth... then i asked her kung cno sa knya... she said ako din daw... i was like waaat? u 4 real? it seemed like a perfect matchup... but whooops... may gf ako at may bf din xa... wa... palpak na naman... so we just continued bein friends...

then came the worst day of my life for me... pro diba every dark cloud has a silver lining... xa ung silver lining... wen she found out na la na kmi ng gf ko she broke up wid her bf... sama noh? but very sweet... para daw di ako maging lonely as a single person... everythin went fine excpt for one day... bigla xang naging indifferent sa akin... nabogla ako of corz... then she said the infamous 4 words... we have to talk... niligawan pala xa ng long time crush niya... at sinagot nya kaagad... i was shattered... ulit... and to think silver lining daw xa... sa sobrang pikon ko hinanap ko yung guy at naikipag sports sa kanya ( 1on1 na suntokan tpos parang walang nangyari)... boy it felt good... after that i never made contact wid her... mahirap kc classm8 ko xa pero i did what i had 2 do...

after a month lumapit mga barkada niya... she was having troubled wid her bf pala... it seems uneasy xa wid d guy... so i asked them kung anoa ng mggwa ko... they asked me if i was still willing to take her bak... i immediately said of corz... di nagtagal she called me if pwede ko ba raw xang samahan sa school... break na pala sila... i felt used pero ok lang... ganyan tlaga magmahal diba? so everythin went fine... more than fine actualy... i didnt expect 2 recover this fast even tho i could still remember d fuckin perfume of my ex...

then... graduation came... we had to part... pinilit ako ng parents ko 2 move to a beter school... at yun yung school ng ex ko... she said ok lang daw kc love can conquer distance daw... and i guess it was true... so my dismissal is 30mins earlier than her so pwede pa kaming magkita... it was very convenient kc may driver at car... but it would only last 30mins lang din coz she had 2 be home early... strict ang parents eh (chinese pipol tlga)...

it was ayt while it lasted... but my parents were still mad at me 4 leaving d school 4 scholars... so they blamed it all on my girl... kawawa xa... my mom abuses her kapag xa ang nkksagot wen she calls... so... i had no choice... her grades were also declining so i decided to stop it muna... my phone was also confiscated at that time... we were graduating that year so konteng tiis lang... after we graduate mgsasama na kmi sa mnila... but i was wrong agen...

you see... we promised each other na whatever happens kmi parin dapat ang magkakatuluyan... 2 bad she didnt keep her promise... i kept mine... well at least i was single wen we graduated... but not her... the grandson of the owner of her school courted her... altho a year younger yung guy sinagot pa rin nya... i found out wen binalik na yung phone ko... i ws so excited to text her... she was surprised of corz but she seemed not so enthusiastic... then inamin na nya... wa... ouch tlga...

then she came around... i did everythin i could to get her bak... at first she allowed me to text her but only as a friend... but i had other plans... in no time naagaw ko xa... timing din... we were both gona study in manila... woohoo... or so i thot...

pagdating sa manila she was bein so demanding... gs2 nya evryday ko xang ksma... eh biruin mo 1hr ang layo ng schools nmin... but i did my best... di nagtagal di ko na nakayanan ang attitude nya... she was too demanding and selosa... i broke up wid her shortly after our 2nd aniv... i felt so ashamed of myself... i felt so weak... but a lot of pipol suported me and i gez it was d ryt thing 2 do... i never heard from her 4 almost a year now... hope shes doin fine tho... coz i surely aint...

Just My Type(Part 2)

Part 2 na! Who cares? I care!

Pagkatapos nung nakakakilig na scene sa part 1(para sakin nakakakilig na un), iniicp q na qng anu gagawn q kay Trizia... the truth is gustung gustu q na xa.... liligawan q kaya xa or kelangan maghintay muna aq para lalo pang mgdevelop ung friendship namin... natatakot din aq dahil bka may mauna sakin... Png iicpan q talagang mabuti kc i have 2 consider many things... In the end nilaksan q loob q... 2tal makapal nman mukha q at malaki possibility na sasagutin nya q kc GWAPO dw aq sabi ng mom q… hehehe (kapal)... So iyon one day ininvite q xa na manood ng movie sa mall (so typical)....casual na casual pagkakatanung q sa kanya... at first nagsusungit xa tas dami png tanung like "bakit tayong dalawa lng?" pero in the end pumayag din (pakipot pa papayag dn pala)... so iyon nagprepare talaga aq para sa gabing iyon... i have 2 make sure na di aq papalpak... ngprapraktis pa nga aq ng sasabihin eh just 2 make sure na iknow what to say kapag actual na...

Nasa mall na aq nghihintay sa kanya(d n nga aq mapakali at that time eh)... Sa wakes dumating n xa... Suot nya ata nun green na top tas nkashort tas nka cap... Ang cute cute cute niya nun promise!!!! Gustu q ngang asarin ng tomboy kaso bka magalit layasan pa q, so sinabi q n lang ang cute niya nung araw na un... Ngthanku naman xa(xempre kilig 2 d max aq)... Ngiting ngiti naman aq... Tas tinanong niya qng bakit daw aq ngumingiti sabi q "la lng"... on the way sa cnehan inaasar nya q ng kung anu anu, qng anuanung asar naririnig q pero ok lng un sakin sa icp q compliments un kaya nkangiti parin aq habang inaasar niya q... tinigilan dn aq kaya lng mejo nabad3p ata dahil ndi dw aq naasar... Mas lalo pa aqng ngumiti dahil ang Cute niya talaga pg nababad3p... Parang gustu q xang nakikitang nababad3p... So iyon nanood n kmi ng movie… Ung movie ni JoJo ung pinanood namin... Aquamarine ata title nun... Tahimik kaming nanonood pero aq tinitingnan q face niya kapag nagkakaroon ng chance(hehehe galing q talaga)... D q nga msyadong naintindihan ung movie eh dahil sa kasusulyap q sa kanya...

Nagu2m xa pagkatapos nung movie kaya un kumain kami sa Don Henricos(dun niya gus2 eh kaya la aq magagawa)... Lakas pala niya kumain ang pinagtataka q lng e bkt ndi xa chubby or mataba(2 pizza ska isang spaghetti w/meatballs ata kinain niya nun)... Natatawa aq habang kumakain xa pero para sa akin Cute na Cute parin xa at napakaganda, mejo kakaiba nga xa sa mga babae na nakilala q dahil mejo boyish xa... Pagkatapos naming kumain cnb q n talaga sa kanya na gustu q xa, na qng ok lng manligaw... Mejo nagulat xa at nag-icpicp... After a few minutes ok lng daw na manligaw aq tas tinanong niya sakin qng anu daw nakita q sa kanya kc madami daw tao na naiintimidate sa kanya dahil sa kanyang ugali... Cb q gustu q xa dahil nagandahan aq sa kanya, magaling xang magbadminton, nagustuhan q ung ugali niya tas nagus2han q ung pagiging "SASSY" niya... Actually para sakin me pagkakahawig siya kay SASSY girl(Kung napanood niyo yung My Sassy Girl kilala nyo xa)... Sa sinabi qng iyon napangiti q xa... At that time... Hrap iexplain ng feeling... Sobrang saya... I’m one step closer...

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this post is bout my first love... i first met her at school... she was tall fair and surprisingly not a chinita... i have always liked chinitas but i fell for a girl who isnt one... she was more of spanish or some sort... im usually shy around girls that i really like... but i couldnt stand the idea of not even knowin her name... so i asked her name... then i asked my cuz to get her number for me a few days later... buti na lang nagrereply xa... pretty girls usualy dont reply eh...

then i asked if i could call her... there was a party at the house then pero mdyo bored ako... so yun... when she answered d phone napatulala ako... ang ganda ng voice nya... i was like whoop... then di tumagal i was calling her everynight... medyo na touch din ako coz if di ako maka call for even one night magtatampo xa... den sinabi nya na she fell in love wid my voice daw... what? voice lang? well... its a start...

then... after 10 months of talkin 2 each other every night she asked me if nanliligaw ba raw ako... i told her i guess so... after a month nag away kami ng kuya ko... he was so furious against me but i wasnt paying attention coz kausap ko xa... so he started yelling... she heard it so she insisted i settle it muna... i told her im gona call bak... i hang up den it began... my kuya cant punch me coz he knows im gona beat him up wid watever i get my hands on... so he insulted me nalang... bale wala lang sa akin so he atempted to insult her... that was it... di ko na matiis yun... i yelled bak and pulled out my knife... i yelled that if he insulted her again im gona make sisig out of him... so he bolted out of the room mumbling... wen i got the phone i noticed the light was still on... so it means di ko na hang up... malay ko ba... akala ko napindut ko yung tamang button eh... she was still on the other line... she heard the whole thing... wow... blessin in disguise... she told me that now she knew how much she meant to me... so sinagot niya ako...Ü

my life was perfect... i just graduated and i got into an exclusive highschool for scholars... my parents noticed im not pasaway anymore... and i have a perfect girl... or so i thought... dont get me wrong... she was mabait smart and pretty... and i loved her... too bad she didnt love me that much din... im a year older kc so nasa elem pa xa... at malayo mga skul nmin... at dun pa rin xa mag aaral sa same skul... so i thot it wud be beter if i gave up my scholarship so that we cud be 2geder in d same skul... but my parents simply wont allow that... so nagloko ako... naging sobrang pasaway uli ako... then i got what i wanted... na kick out ako... pero di ako tinanggap ng skul niya dahil di ako binigyan ng good moral certific8... so dun ako nag aral sa isang lesser skul na kilala ng dad ko ang may ari... she wold me it wudnt make a difference...

well... it did... i wanted to surprise her so i went to her skul widout tellin her... wen i arrived there my friends offered me to join their gang... they said they were goin to initiate someone so i could be initiated din... i passed coz i wanted 2 see her talaga... wen i got inside the skul i was instantly recognized by a classmate of mine in 3rd grade... i asked her to tell my gf dat i was here... she came bak tellin me dat she didnt know who i am... i was shattered... someone who didnt see me for about 4 years instantly recognizes me but my own gf doesnt... wtf is dat? so i went bak to my friends and asked of the offer was still open... the initiation was a 10second fight between me and 3 guys... when it started i didnt move an inch... so bugbog ako... one of the girls even shouted stop kc naaawa daw xa sa akin... it obviously didnt stop... it was the longest 10 seconds in my life...

she explained that she didnt know my name coz she wasnt expectin me at all... bullshit... but i still believed her... in my heart i know that only by bein patient can i give real love... den one day i saw my friend at the mall... i asked him wat he was up 2 den he said he was watchin a movie wid someone... so i said my greetings and even wished him luck wid d girl... pagkagabi nun she called me... she said di na raw nya kaya... she was seein someone else na daw... thank god shes honest noh? pak shit... at mas masakit pa... shes seein my friend who i saw at d mall... turns out sila pala ang manonood ng sine... waaah... i wanted 2 die... i lost my school... my parents trust... and her...

after a year i was able to study in her skul... she called me up after the first week of classes... she was surprised i returned... para daw xang nakakita ng multo... and she asked me a favor... wag ko daw sana bugbugin ang bf nya... she knew me too well... that was my hidden agenda... well... not anymore... and i got over her na din... by that time may bagong gf na ako... but somethin unexpected happend...

her bf went to singapore to represent the skul... she unexpectedly called me up... at first casual talk lang... but as time went by our love was rekindled... timing kc la na ulit akong gf nun... it turned out na they were havin problems pala... he was always finding faults in her and yelling at her daw... and to think lampas 1yr na sila nun... i was infuriated... but she still begged for me not to do anythin... then she asked if she cud go to my haus... i gladly said yes... nakapambahay lang xa but she was still very pretty... we wer only supposed to watch tv lang but somethin happend... i still couldnt 4get that moment... it was like heaven... but it was temporary... babalik na bf nya pagkabukas nun... well... good things never last...

right now im at the same skul as her na naman... we havent talked that much but i dont know... i could still remember the scent of her perfume on our first date... bago na naman ang bf niya... but i hope she didnt forget my love for her... my very first love...

Just My Type (Part 1)

Well, here's my story. It's summer. Dyahe! Lang magawa! So nagdecide aq na mgsports clinic na lng sa sports that i loved badminton. Excited aq dahil kapag nagbadminton clinic ka dun sa center na yun, isasali ka nila sa tournaments ska xempre malaki ang chance na magkakaroon ka ng madaming friends.

First day ng class. Introduction lang naman. Binigyan kami ng time para makilala mga kasama namin. May mga araw na confident aq, may mga araw dn na shy aq. That day, confident na confident ako (yeahba!). Bale nine kaming magbabdminton. Madami aq nakilala mga seven people un. Mababait naman sila (bute naman). Pero may napansin akong isang girl. Mukha siyang maangas at intimidating kahit hindi naman siya matangkad. Pero para sa akin, napakaCUTE niya!!! Grabe! Ang cute niya talaga! Ang cute niyang SUMIMANGOT! Sabi ko sa sarili ko "She's just my type"(hehehe). Pero siya lang ang hindi ko kinausap nung araw na yun. Next session nagkaroon kami ng levelling. Ung levelling ay isang match na ginagawa para malaman ng coach ung skills mo. Dahil late kaming dalawa nung cute na masungit na girl, kaming dalawa ung naglaban. May experience aq sa badminton kaya nilamangan q xa. 13-7 ata score nun(basta malaki lamang q), sobrang confident n ako! Tas ung maangas pero cute na girl mukhang bad3p na bad3p na(ang cute niyang mabad3p)! Mejo ndi n q mkafocus sa game dahil sa mukha niya lang ako nkatingin. Nung time na un tinira ko ung shuttlecock mahina na tas mataas pa ung pagkakatira q! Ginamit niya ung opportunity para magsmash! Ang bilis ng pagdating sakin nung bola. Kaya iton, tinamaan ako ng shuttlecock sa mukha(Shit! kakahiya!). Doon q siya nakitang tumawa. Nagsorry siya pero hindi niya maitago ang pagtawa niya. Ako naman hiyang-hiya sa sarili q. In the end natalo aq 17-16. Pagkatapos ng game. Inapproach niya aq, (shit naman oh, pagtatawanan ata aq ni2 eh) sabi niya "sori sa nangyari kanina, d q naman sinasadyang tamaan ka". Sabi q ok lng. Tas nagtanungan kami ng name(Trizia name niya). Tas 2mawa siya at biglang nagmayabang. Iyon, dun nagsimula ang friendship namin.

As days passed, naging close na close kami dahil sa text, phone calls saka playing with each other. D q pa cnasabi na gustu q xa dahil la pa aq planong sabihin. Madami kaming similarities. Mahilig kami sa books saka computer. Ayon sa kanya, kaya siya nag-aangas dahil astig daw maangas. May mga times na feminine ang ugali niya pero mas madalas maangas siya(just my type, hehehe). Dumating ung time nagdecide n ung coach qng sasali kami sa single's or sa double's. D q maexplain qng gaano ako kasaya ng masama aq sa mixed competition tas si Trizia pa kakampi q!(San ka pa!). Gustu qng manlibre nun! Ako na ata pinakamaswerteng, pinakagwapong lalaki sa balat ng lupa nung time na un!!!! SHIT talaga!!!!! Simula nun sineryoso q talaga badminton para ndi naman aq mapahiya sa kanya!

Tournament time na! Sa may cubao ung venue. Focused na focused talaga aq. Meron kcng four rounds un. Pg nalampasan m un ng walang talo, pasok ka sa finals, pg natalo kayo, tanggal na kagad kau. Unfortunately, natalo kami sa fourth round. Sinisi talaga ni Trizia ang sarili niya. Ang tanga tanga daw niya. Dun q xa nakitang umiyak. Parang iba xa sa Trizia na maangas na nakilala q pero cute din xa kahit umiiyak. Sa 2too lng awang-awa aq sa knya. D q alam qng panu siya icocomfort. Inakbayan q n lng xa ska hinatid sa bahay niya. 2loy parin ang pag-iyak niya at pagsisi sa sarili niya habang nasa daan kami. Pgdating naming sa bahay nila, ngthank you xa sakin dahil nakinig daw aq sa kanya. Sa loob-loob q, bte n lng natalo kami, qng ndi, d mngyayari 2.

To be continued...

Start of something? mwahaha!

It was another ordinary day at school. Lamog sa studies, puyat lahat as usual, pero saya naman hahaha. During lunch break namin, meron ako napansin babae, naka brown business blouse siya and pink skirt. Kinis ng muka at maypagka chinita mistiza(one of my favorite types btw hahaha).. So yun, napansin ko siya so nawow ako..so after naman lunch class ulet, pero isa lang.. after PE wala na ako class.

Edi naglakad-lakad lang ako muna at tumambay sa may ALB fountain. E yun, out of no where, nakita ko nanaman siya!!! Nakatunganga lang ako sa kagandahan niya.. Nung dumaan siya...hai... nakakakilig :P Dahil dun, nagutom tuloy ako kaya pumunta naman ako sa canteen.

After the quick snack. Balak ko na umuwi sa bahay.. Naglakad ako papuntang CAS garden, kasi meron pa ako kukunin book sa library. Nung nasa garden na ako, guess what??? NANDUN DIN SIYA!!!! Napapatulala niya nanaman ako sa kanya presense..grabe TALAGA! Is this the start of something???? hahaha :D

Sana makikilala ko pa ang napagandang niyang mukha next time we meet hehehehe...WOO HOO!!!!

Another great reason to stay in UAP hahahaha...(joke)...