Checked Into Rehad

Baby, baby,
When we first met,
I never felt somethin' so strong,
You were like my lover and my best friend,
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it,
And all of a sudden you went and left,
I didn't know how to follow,
It's like a shock that spun me around,
And now my heart's dead,
I feel so empty and hollow.

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you,
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back,
And you're the one to blame,
And now I feel like.

Ohh, you're the reason why I'm thinkin',
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more,
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinkin',
Should've never let you enter my door,
Next time you wanna go on and leave,
I should just let you go on and do it,
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed...

It's like I checked into rehab,
And baby, you're my disease...

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept,
You'd do anythin' for the one you love,
'Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there,
It's like you were my favorite drug,
The only problem is that you was using me,
In a different way than I was using you,
But now that I know it's not meant to be,
I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you.

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you,
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back,
And you're the one to blame,
And now I feel like.

Ohh, you're the reason why I'm thinkin',
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more,
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinkin',
Should've never let you enter my door,
Next time you wanna go on and leave,
I should just let you go on and do it,
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed...

It's like I checked into rehab,
And baby, you're my disease...

Ohh, you're the reason why I'm thinkin',
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more,
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinkin',
Should've never let you enter my door,
Next time you wanna go on and leave,
I should just let you go on and do it,
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed....

My Story

Remember when...

We were walking down the street
It was just you and I
There was a gentle breeze
You said: I like how the wind plays with your hair

We were watching a movie
We sat at the back and centre
The film started rolling
You said: I like how the projector light touches your skin

We ate dinner downtown
We were all dressed up
There were candles
You said: I like how the fire reflects in your eyes

We were going home
We were in your car
It was a stop
You said: I like how you fit in my front seat

We talked on the phone
You were in New York
There was laughter in the background
You said: I miss you

We met after your trip
It was raining
The sky was dark
You said: I was unfaithful, I'm sorry
I said: I know, I heard her laugh

We looked at each other
You held my hand
My tears started falling
You said: I still want to be with you
I said: I know...

We stepped closer
I looked at you
I smiled sadly
I said: Forgive me... cause I can never forgive you...

Ang dating pag-ibig.. Pag-ibig nga ba o infatuation lamang???

Ngayon2 lamang ay bigla na lamang nag pm ang aking kaibigan na matagal ko nang di nakakausap.. Maiksi lamang ang aming dialogo ngunit napakalakas ng tama sa akin.. Maitatanong ninyo kung bakit ang sagot ay dahil dati akong nagkagusto sakanya.. Alam kong hindi ko pa siya nakikita kahit isang beses sa personal puro sa mga litrato lamang.. Gandang ganda ako sakanya.. Nakakatawa pa nga kung pano ko siya nakilala hanggang ngayon alalang alala ko pa..

Gabi noon ng magtext ang aking matalik na kaibigan at tinanong ako kung ok lang ba makipagtext mate ang kanyang TITA sa akin.. Ang aking unang naisip ay.. "TITA!? matanda na!?" ngunit bago ko pa ito maitanong sknya ay huli na ang lahat at nagtext na sa akin ang kanyang tita.. Kaya iyon kamustahan etc.. Nang makita ko ang kanyang litrato ay hangang hanga ako sa kanyang kagandahan.. Bata pa siya ha kasing edad ko lang siya haha baka kung ano isipin ninyo.. At tumagal kaming nagtext2 at nakilala ko siya ng husto.. Sa punto na nagsasabi na siya ng mga sikreto sa akin.. Di nagtagal eh me nararamdaman na ako sakanya.. Tarantang taranta ako kapag magttext siya.. Gusto ko magtext na lang kami buong magdamag kaso kelangan nya matulog hehe.. Tumatawag din siya paminsan.. May mga pagkakataon ngang me klase ako eh tatawag siya napakasweet.. Masasabi nating nakakatuliro siya.. Kahit na malayo siya at taga Cavite siya eh ganun na ang aking nararamdaman.. Kahit ndi ko pa siya nakikita ng personal.. Kaso di din nagtagal ay unti-unting nababawasan ang aming pagtetext at tawag kaya ako ay labis na nalungkot..

Hindi ko alam kung tunay nga bang umibig ako sakanya o nabighani lamang sa kanyang kagandahan.. Ang alam ko lang ay napakasarap ng aking pakiramdam kapagkanakakausap ko siya o kahit katext at chat man lamang.. Ang kanyang pagkausap sakin ngayon2 lamang ay nakapaglagay ng ngiti sa aking mukha.. Sapat na sa akin ang malaman kong naaalala pa niya ako at naituturing pa ding isang kaibigan.. Hindi ko naman sinasabing liligawan ko siya at na gusto ko.. Siguro maging malapit na kaibigan ay ok na ako hindi ko ito sinasabi lamang para magpaimpress ngunit ito talaga ang tunay kong ninanais.. Kaya ang aking hangarin ay ang makita siya sa personal kahit isang beses kahit isang segundo.. Tunay nga namang nakakamiss siya.. Hanggang ngayon.. Hanggang sa kami ay magkita..  Sana ay mabigyan pa ako ng pagkakataong mapalapit sakanya.. Marami pong salamat sa oras..

The Perfect Love

Have you ever known a PERFECT LOVE? I have. A love so beautiful and real; it’s almost impossible to express how you feel. A love that has lasted a life time. The kind of love so pure that heartache and pain hasn’t faltered it. Have you ever known a love that is always there never judging, and always fair. A love so strong in your heart that nothing can tear it apart. Love that wipes away the tears, carries you through all your fears that is never criticizing, a love that defends you, that you can share all of your desires with, your fantasies and your dreams. A love that understands your most inner intimacies, a love that has survived the test of the years come and gone. This is a love that grows stronger as the years pass. A love that comes along ‘once’ in a lifetime... A love ‘through the years’; And sadly it is also a love that can de destroyed in the blink of an eye...

Now when that happens its comparable, no, its beyond comparable to any knife stabbed in the depths of your heart. Thats how painful it is; sadly all I ever do and all I've ever done was to kill my emotions and let the pain die out like slow poison spreading throughout my body... and this is the day I realize that "I have known a PERFECT LOVE."

Irony

Why is it that love does not choose those who seek it but select those who don't seek it, who really don't need it. I've observed in my life so far that those who are alone, those who need someone to be with to get through their life, never really find someone. While those who don't deserve it get to be with someone who cares for them that to at some point they'll hurt them.

Is this the irony of life?

Is love in this world one big joke?