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ei... it's been a while... la ako magawa eh... so i will continue my story nalang...

so we didn't talk for a while... as in nothing... and i was still left in the dark... then one night my sister introduced me to the yahoo messenger... i know i should know how to use one but i never did because someone beat me to my username... i just used an extra yahoo account of my kuya... then i had no one to add... then thanks to my good memory i remembered her email adress... i was so lucky brcause at the same time she was online too... she immediately added me and asked who i was... i introduced myself and greeted her... she had nowhere to go... i had her cornered... so i asked her why she acted like i didn't exist...

she told me that she heard something about me... then she asked me if there was anything that i said about the two of us... i was so nervous... i thought that maybe she found out that i fell for her... how scary... well... i didn't have a choice so i told her that i like her... and i asked if that's what she heard... there was a smiley that came next... and unfortunately that wasn't what she heard... how embarassing...

she then explained that someone told her that i told someone that we had a dinner date and we were close to being in a relationship... i was shocked... no... i was infuriated... i wanted to grab that person's head and smash it into a wall...

i then explained to her that i know nothing about the rumors... i also told her that the dinner date may be explained by me inviting her to the dinner party at my house... but i couldn't explain the other rumor... someone must have really hated me... and that someone will pay...

after a couple of days i found out whom the rumor originated from... he was a classmate of mine in biology... i confronted him on our next class... pero i punched the door very hard to get his attention... he denied it of course... but i was ready to kick some ass... but then she called... she begged for me to stop...

i didn't have a choice... i stopped... i don't actually know why... but there was something about her voice that calms me down...

every night we would meet chat using our yahoo messengers... and everything started to change...

will it ever be right?

guy meets girl. girl has boyfriend. guy falls for girl. and eventually girl falls for guy. then girl breaks up with boyfriend to be with guy.

does this situation sound familiar? tell me. will it ever be right? what are the chances that the girl will not do it to the guy also? is it doomed from the start? will it be a vicious cycle with no end?

this is the situation i am in right now. i am the guy of course. and i am paranoid as hell. i hope she will be mine forever.

TORPE

When will we know when is the "right" time? Actually, mahirap... We'll just feel it lang deep in our hearts... Na eto na... All or nothing...

Do you believe in destiny? That if you're really for each other, you'll end up being together? We'll "now" i "kinda" believe... You see... without the effort, destiny will be useless... Comeon, girls are not insensitive... Somehow they'll feel that you're falling for her... What? Are you waiting for her to make a move? do you want to see her in the arms of a stranger? well if you want to make her happy and you know that you can make her happy, make the move... Don't be that TORPE... even if she likes you she wont make a move... how will you know what she feels? don't be scared of what to happen... men should learn to accept the things he cannot change

So if it's the right time... do you want to make a move? or do you want to stay in the friend zone? well... there's nothing wrong in both... it's up to you... you have choices:
1) stay in the friend zone
for me this is a coward move... ok you'll remain attached to her... but there will be a time that you want to get out of the friend zone... but you can't even though you wan't to...
2) tell her
risky... but relieving...

sa mga Torpe... me kanta ang mga babae para sa mga Torpe...

Torpe (Barbie's Cradle)

H'wag na lang kaya
Hari ng katorpehan
H'wag, h'wag na lang kaya
'Di ka ba nagsasawa sa liwanag ng buwan

Chorus:
Namamatay na ang mga rosas sa tabi
'Di ka pa rin bumibili
Nauubos na ang oras sa kahihintay
Pero ni sulat ni tawag wala

Ba't mo pa kailangan ng tulay
Kahit ulap nagsasabi tayo bagay
Ba't mo pa kailangang magtanong
Kung alam mo na, alam mo na

Repeat Chorus

Namamatay na ang mga rosas sa tabi
'Di ka pa rin bumibili
Nauubos na ang oras sa kahihintay
walang sulat, ni tawag

Bridge:
Bilisan mo na ngayon
Kasi tumatakbo ang tren
Bilisan mo na ngayon
Iiwanan ka, iiwanan

Chorus 2:
Ayoko ng torpe
Ayoko ng torpe
Ayoko ng torpe
Ayoko ng torpe
Pero gusto kita...

Love Advice

elo po! ngayon lang ako nakapost ulet. pero ngayon. di ako magkkwento. Magbibigya ako ng mga tips! yeap! pero galing lang sa movie na hitch na nacompile ko hehe.

[first lines]
Hitch: Basic Principles - no woman wakes up saying "God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!" Now, she might say "This is a really bad time for me," or something like "I just need some space," or my personal favorite "I'm really into my career right now." You believe that? Neither does she. You know why? 'Cause she's lying to you, that's why. You understand me? Lying! It's not a bad time for her. She doesn't need any space. And she may be into her career, but what she's really saying is "Uh, get away from me now," or possibly "Try harder, stupid," but which one is it? 60% of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; 30% is your tone, so that means 90% of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth. Of course she's going to lie to you! She's a nice person! She doesn't want to hurt your feelings! What else she going to say? She doesn't even know you... yet. Luckily, the fact is that just like the rest of us, even a beautiful woman doesn't know what she wants until she sees it, and that's where I come in. My job is to open her eyes. Basic Principles - no matter what, no matter when, no matter who... any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet; he just needs the right broom.

Hitch: Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away.

Hitch: Any guy can sweep any girl off her feet, he just needs the right broom.

Hitch: One dance, one look, one kiss, that's all we get(Albert). Just... one shot, to make the difference between happily ever after, and oh? he's just some guy I went to some thing with once.

Estoy en amor?

hehehehe...

hi block! (after a long time... nagpost din ako uli.. haha)

just want to tell you na may bagong crush ako sa skul! hahaha

she's my secret crush! as in nobody knows it except me!hahaha

kelan pa ba to nagstart? uhhh... probably last sem...

classmate ko kasi siya sa last subject ko every tuesday/friday last sem!

then i just realized na there's something different with this girl.

she's very quiet, mysterious and stylish.. haha

i also found out that she's into photography and arts...

Sa kaniya ko narealize that i have the tendency to be attracted with girls who are very artistic kasi almost all my past crushes are so much inclined to the arts! hahaha

and ngayon classmate ko uli siya sa last class ko twing tuesday/friday!

wow! hahahaha

tpos pareho pla kami ng pe time! hehehe

there was this time na sobrang nakakahiya...

we were having drills sa pe namin then bigla siyang dumaan tpos natamaan siya nung ball sa head niya!
eh i was the one who is supposed to catch the ball so nahihiya ako sa kaniya kahit di ako yung nakatama sa kaniya! hahaha parang i could have saved her from being hit by the ball but di ko nagawa!

sumigaw ako (sigaw na pang 2 meters) ng "sorry" sa kaniya and she just smiled and said she's fine.. hehe natatawa pa nga siya nung papalayo na siya eh hehehehe

pero if i were to evaluate kung anong level na yung pagccrush ko sa kaniya,
probably 10% crush ko pa lng siya hehehe...

i'm not really sure if she has a boyfriend already but i think she's still single hehehe
right now i don't have any plans to make a move..
steady mode muna hehehe

it all boils down to this question...

Who is she? hehehehe
i can only give the initials...
V.C.

til next time!